9 years ago I went with my friend to a place in the woods. We were wearing sweaters, the ones with hoods. We were walking and she noticed a lone Burch tree surrounded by wood.
I remember this tree because it was the only one left of its kind in a forest full of oak and pine. We were talking about our thoughts and hopes and dreams discussing a idea of a ultimate scheme. But this tree took our breaths away, it caught our attention, we just couldn't look away.
We touched it and stared.. We couldn't help but think about this history of this tree. If it could talk what would it say? Would it ask us a question, like, "How was your day?".
Would it tell of the things it's seen and life really means? We took a pocket knife out of my pocket, and carved out a picture of a gold locket. Inside the center we carved out our names. And all of a sudden a sensation came to my brain.
It was something I had never felt before, it was as if the dawn of a new life was knocking on the front door. It was warm and tingly, it made me fell as if all of my problems and worry's had faded away.... I wasn't old, or young, I wasn't smart or dumb, I was in the moment and all I knew was a new feeling had sprung.
I stopped looking at the tree and looked at her... I noticed the blue in her eyes, I noticed how soft her hair was, I noticed how perfect her smile was...
I saw her in a new light, one that filled me with terror and delight.... She was my best friend, and the only friend I had, how could I tell her what was in my heart? What if I opened my self completely? What if she wouldn't like what she see's? She was the closest to heaven that I've ever been but I did not want our friendship to become like my life... Broken.
She got a call from her dad, and told me she had to go... She looked at me smiled, waved goodbye, and was gone...
When I went to her house the next day it was empty... She had moved and not told me... I called her but her phone and number were terminated. She was gone...
I wondered what would have happened if I told her how I felt, I wondered what would could have been had I not wait, and if I just asked her out on a simple date...
Forward to present day and I still think about her... I may have forgotten her name, I may have forgotten what she looked like, but I can never forger how she made me feel... She was an angle among my demons and I was the one that let her slip away... Had I told her how I felt about her, maybe she would not be the one who got away...
Just the other day, I was driving down street I used to live on... I stopped and got out, and figured I would talk a walk, regardless if it was getting late or not... I was walking though the woods and I got lost... But... Something felt familiar... I kept walking and I saw something straight ahead! It was the a lone tree, that felt like a ghost to me! I started walking faster and before I knew it I was running like the wind that blew past me! As I walked up to the tree I put my hand over it and closed my eyes... I slowly rubbed my hand over its old withering bark... And then I felt something... It was the carving we made all those years ago...
I opened my eyes and looked and the spot... I noticed something that was not written by me... Under where I had written, "I love you.." there was something written in a style that matched the hand writing of her initials...
The writing said.. "I know... I always did. And I feel the same... I wa-" and then that was it... The rest was to faded to read... So I will never know what she wanted to say... I was just happy that she remembered me and had feelings too... After all these years, after all that the tree has been through, it still stood. It was a message of hope and a symbol of love.
I will never find my friend, she is long gone, and I have made amends and written my own love songs...But she is out there and I will keep searching... Maybe if I wait at the place where we last met, the first place we both feel in love, she will be waiting, we can have that date we never had, and I can tell her what I was never able to say... As long as there is light in the days I will live each moment like my last, and find the girl of my past... And we could share a love that will always last...