I don't know what to say...
From my brief outside perspective (as in interaction with you here, and on XBL) it was hard to see that you had gone through some terrible things (which I am myself a victim of). I'm truly sorry to hear you contemplated those thoughts. :c
But your future looks bright and optimistic now. I hope you not only reach your goals (whatever they may be), but in time surpass them!
When (or if) you decide to make a trek back to the good old 343i... we will be waiting wholeheartedly. c:
I think this man deserves a round of applause!!
Long live Lenny! Long live Maestro! ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)