I've always felt a little conflicted about it. The thing is that I generally don't really see myself as much of a 'leader' because, at my core, I'm just a Halo fan who's had an incredibly positive experience with the forum and its members, and I'm privileged enough to have been offered the chance to really give something back to the community. I don't even know that there is such a thing as a 'leader' of the membership at all: we came here because we love Halo, but we stay because of the friends we've made, because of these little groups of people who we've come to know and love. I can't tell people how or how not to be friends - how to make each other laugh, or smile, or cry. Only you can do that - and since those interactions, those friendships are what really matter - who am I to claim that I'm a leader?
The truth is, everyone on the site has the potential to be a leader: it's as simple as getting a few friends together and jumping into Matchmaking, or going into the Forge sections and trying out some of the maps we have submitted there, or even starting a great thread that people want to read and participate in. The staff are just here to help keep things organised.
While I'm definitely a lot more vocal in the shoutbox now than I ever was as a member - I think I had something like 400 shouts when I first became a C-Mod, and by then I'd been on the site for almost two years - around the forums themselves, I'm a lot quieter. One of the big differences between being a moderator and a member is that, as a mod, I have to read everything that's posted. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, as it means I get a much better sense of who people are, but it is time-consuming, and so while it used to be that I'd login to the forums, pick out a few topics which interested me and reply to them, now I generally just skim-read everything.
One of the things that people probably don't realise about me is just how slow a poster I am: as of this sentence, I've been writing this post for just under half an hour. And because of the way I am as a person, I generally don't like leaving short replies to things, meaning that an average post will take me anywhere from about twenty minutes to an hour. This is fine when I'm just reading eight or nine topics a day, but when I'm reading 100+ posts (and this isn't even counting Offbeat!), I normally just don't have the time to write out a reply of the standard which it deserves.
The members. I've met so many friends in the time I've been here, had so many good experiences: people cheering me up when I've been feeling down, people reading my humble opinions and thinking they're worthy of the time to write a reply, people deciding I'm fun enough that they'd like to come and play a few matches of Halo with me (although usually not enough to let me win!). The truth is, I could count on one hand the number of people on my friends list who I didn't know irl before I joined the forums: now, almost everyone I game with is someone I've met from here.
There are so many great memories I have. I could talk for hours about the first time I joined in a forum playdate, the way everyone refused to believe my accent was real; of the time Absolute Dog chased me, screaming my head off as I ran, with an Energy Sword for five solid minutes while everyone else literally stopped fighting to watch; of all the nonsense that Church inevitably has to cut out of the Community Podcast whenever we record it as it's simply too rude ever to be broadcast.
Memories like that - those that I cherish - are something that everyone deserves to have. The forums have been so good to me in furnishing those experiences: the very least I can do in return is make sure that everyone else gets a chance to have them as well.
One of the big ways that the community has changed me is how much more social I am online. Prior to joining the forums, I never really interacted with people I didn't know online: if I were to talk to people at all, it'd usually just be in the form of replying to a post on a forum somewhere. Having a shoutbox - having a comparatively small pool of regular members - meant I got to know pretty much everyone on the site, and I slowly got more comfortable just opening up and talking to people. A few years ago, you'd have been hard pressed to get me to even plug in a microphone for a customs lobby: now I'm happy to sit and record podcasts.
In short, it's done wonders for my self-confidence. Just a shame it hasn't improved my voice!
I think this is pretty much covered above. Beyond that: I'm a fairly empathetic person. Chances are, if I do meet you, there's going to be at least something I like about you. And if there's something I like about you - why wouldn't I do my best to make the forums as nice a place as possible for you?
Oh please, I can't even get all of my own answers into one paragraph!